♡ 06.12.21 ♡
i attempted to follow the kittyphone kid home. i was on the other side of the street this time, but they made a turn i couldn’t follow without raising a lot of suspicion. i ended up walking with an acquaintance for a number of blocks in stead. we were silent except for the beginning and very end, but it was somewhat nice. it reminded me a bit of beloved, but it was very different from that. he offered to give me a ride home, even. i denied it since i didn’t even live in that direction but it was very kind. i think maybe i should avoid going that way unless i have reason to. it’s a mistake to keep doing this. i kept feeling like i was being followed myself, which is funny. on the way back to the park i found a magazine on the ground opened to a page with a bear. maybe that means something. anyway, today was quite odd. the overall energy was different. maybe it’s because i’m more directly acknowledging my obsession? it feels like more than that, though. i’m confused.