maybe i really am just messed up

i'm so obsessed with you but it doesn't matter what i do anymore

i know you recognize me, but do you still think about me?

do you care?

i've loved you for a long time now. it really hurts to feel like this

the way you looked at me earlier just reset it all. i thought maybe i could accept that you stopped showing up. i want you to talk to me again

i'm sorry that i'm such a mess. i'm sorry i'm so bad at knowing what to say, but i want to thank you for ever being there.

i know you're terrible with emotional vulnerability but i want you to be part of my life again. the times i spent with you in the garden meant everything to me